It's out

Got my clerage out today, the worst thing was just like the doc said the speculum, it hurt like a bitch, and just think that is outer va jay jay being stretched, my cervix is dilated to 2 cm, doc was saying he will be surprised if I make it to appt next week, I am hoping I am like what I have been reading on internet I will stay at 2 cm for a couple more weeks until at least induction date, at least cervix is favorable for a induction. Just been having some cramping like he said, but all the pressure I had been feeling down there was like a big release when the stitch came out, happy it came out I read today that someones clerage tore in a weird place cause of her dilation.

Friday check in

No more cervix checks yeah, at least at my peri appointments, they said at this point the cervix starts to shorten, and if I was to go into labor they would not do anything to stop it. I think I will probally have one more cervix check at my regular ob visit he said he does not consider me off bedrest till 34 weeks. Still trying to get the crib setup, I have had this crib since Jan. last month it was finally moved from the garage to the bedroom, today it was finally taken out of the box. At least my mom bought me a moses basket, I ordered the stand for it last week so that will be used next to the bed. The crib will be used for during the day for naps. The babys estimated weight is 4 lbs 11 oz. so she is getting big she is in the 60th percentile, doc says right now need to keep blood sugars in control if I want to make it to delivering at 38 weeks.

Friday Update

Today appt no change in cervix is still the same. Last night I could not remember if I took my Blood pressure meds, so I took one, I guess I did take one earlier, all the sudden I got hot dizzy and just threw up over the side of the bed. Husband just standing there like a deer caught in headlights he goes to get me a towel to clean up a mess, I am like can you call the doctor and let them know I think I took too much BP med, so he called the on call doc, he was no help to her he could not remember the name of the medicine I take, I have told him several times this is info he should no what if I pass out or something, so he gives me the phone, she said it sounds like your talking okay so your not short of breath, just sounds like your blood volumes are really low, drink 4 to 5 large glasses of any liquid without caffeine if you do not feel better 10 to 15 minutes after drinking it then head to the hospital, so husband goes to get me several bottles of water out of kitchen and I see he also took the time to get him a Pepsi, I just thought to myself what the hell, I could be dying and you feel the need to make sure you had something to drink, after I drank the water felt much better just spent the rest of the night peeing every 10 to 15 minutes.

appt day

Had my weekly appointments today, they did another ffn test at high risk doctor, it came back positive, but doc said they aren't concerned cervix came back longer at 1.8, no real contractions I just go back in a week. regular ob appt uneventful

ob/gyn

Had a regular ob/gyn appt on fri, they just hooked me up to the fetal monitor machine, no contractions, was happy I did not have to be poked and prodded that appointment. My husband wanted to know why they did not check cervix I told him its because they just did it on mon he was like this is a different office I told him they share info. Doc said he is looking at inducing at 37 or 38 weeks. So it looks like I will have a taurus.

My mom purchased a graco infant seat and a maxi cosi convertabile car seat. We are hoping to get a bugaboo on this sale site she shops on they hold private sales for three days, and then a new sale starts she got the maxi cosi at 40% off. If anyone would like a invite send me your email. Of course there is something in it for me, when you make your first purchase I get a 10.00 credit, but clothes are on sale anywhere from 20% to 70% off the clothes you see in those expensive boutiques, and then of course baby gear like I said before maxi cosi, graco, and they just had a uppa stroller sale, but I have my heart set on getting a bugaboo. Its geared to mothers, babys, and children so again leave a email if you would like a invite.

Follow up Peri Appt

Had peri appointment to do the F test, it came back negative, cervix is alot shorter at 1.2 now but since cervix is still hard and closed and it is not shortened near the stitch she said I can continue to do bedrest at home. The bad news of the day is now I am on insulin sugars were fine you could tell they are creeping up, doc said since I am on bedrest and cannot do any excercise I will need to be on insulin at some point in this pregnancy, so best to start it now, and not when sugars are out of control.

Next milestone lets hope I make it to 28 weeks.

Peri appt

Had another appt today baby is measuring 1 lb 14 oz she is in the 55th percentile for her gest. age, cervix is not doing good it went down to a 2.0 so have to go back on monday to do the Fggn test and make sure my cervix is not below a 2.0 if i fail either of these tasks then it will be back in the hospital for me.

peri appt

I forgot to update about peri appt, on Fri cervix length is now at 2.5 which is still short but I am happy it seems to be getting longer and not shorter, also had a appt with regular ob/gyn he said I will definately be on bedrest until 34 weeks.

Peri Appointment

Had my peri appointment, cervix is still measuring short, I am on bed rest until he says so, he told me I should be more worried about what is in my hospital bag, than when I will return at work, he said at any appointment he can readmitt me in the hospital so don't be surprised if it happens, I am on leave from work till April 5th.

Surgery Day

Finally by 7pm nurse came in and said urine test came back fine surgery tommorrow, no eating after midnight, nurse woke me at 6am and told me surgery was at 9am they would come and get me at 8am so I need to change in a gown, I needed help getting in the gown because of my IV, my husband had spent the night so he helped me get in the gown, they wheeled me in the stretcher to the prep area, the anestitheologist came in to discuss my options be put to sleep or epidural, said he recommended epidural it was easier on the baby. I chose the epidural, he comes back has me get in fetal position and says you are going to feel a pinch, I guess I got stressed out I heart the blood pressure machine start beeping his assistant said her blood pressure has skyrocketed, the doc tells her give her 1cc of something to help me relax, he finishes the epidural and then all the sudden I get hot, and dizzy and feel like I just want to barf, my husband comes in and says whats wrong I tell him I don't feel good, the doc says we gave her something to relax and it brought her blood pressure down real low, I started crying I was just want to throw up I wanted to roll over to try to barf but couldn't because the epidural was worked I was numb from belly button down. The doc tells his assistant to give me some ephindrene I think, and then they start asking me over and over my name and birth date, my husband was like what are you doing, we are trying to stop her from passing out until her pressure comes back he starts shaking my bed, I wanted to kick him but couldn't move my legs, then my surgery doc comes in lets move her I am ready, while they are wheeling me I am moaning doctor says don't let her throw up that will cause her to contract and make it hard for me to stitch, by the time we get to the operating room, I feel so much better, doc must of gave me alot in my epidural I did not feel a thing, it took forever for the epidural to wear off, the doc said when it wore off I could go home, they wheeled me back to the room it took 2 hours for the epidural to wear off, and then I needed some pain meds took a nap woke up at 4pm, and finally was sent home at 4pm, I am now on bedrest for a week until my appointment on thursday.

In the hospital

On Monday went to my peri appointment, they did another anatomy scan, everything was going well, then she measured the cervix and it was measuring short, she went to get the doctor, the doctor came in and said you have a incompetent cervix, have you been having any contractions, I was like no, she was like we want to admit you in the hospital and do a clerage, or you can go home and be on strict bedrest and comeback and see if it is longer, I was like I want the clerage, the doctor was like you are taking this too well, I was like is something wrong with the baby she was like no, baby is healthy, she was like okay a nurse will wheel you over, when the nurse wheeled me to the hospital and then just left me at the admissions desk and all these pregnant people that were checking in because they were in labor, and when the clerk asked me why I was sitting there I just started bawling and could barely talk, I gave her the papers the doctors office told me to give her, and then tried calling my husband he can't pick up at work, I called my mother it was a miracle she picked up, I just got a new cell number and she does not pick up numbers she does not recognize, I started crying again she was yelling what is wrong is the baby ok are you ok, what happened? I finally got it together and told her, and asked her to call my boss because I didn't want to break down to her, and then told her to find my wallet I left it by the computer, but my info was already in the hospital system since I had to do diabetes classes.

I was finally admitted in my room it was the size of a closet no shower, just a toilet in the corner, the nurse came in to ask the standard questions, said I was on strict bedrest which meant no getting up for the bathroom I had to use a bedpan, that sucked, they put me on a contraction monitor, then my sister came pissed the nurse off trying to joke around with her, then my mom and brother came, they stayed alittle while, then they all left, then my husband came, I finally got fed at like 4pm. The next morning the tech from my peri office came in and did a ultrasound said that cervix looked a little longer, surgery was to be at 1pm, so I was getting preped for that moved over to the strecther when doc called and said no they did not like my labs showed I could have preclampsia, when they admitted me my blood pressure was 157/100, now labs showed kidneys were elevated, so I have to do a 24 hour urine, and she nurse noticed urine was cloudy so I could have a uti so they started me on some antibiotics. The good news I got moved to a new room and was allowed to get up for showers and to use the bathroom, it was like the ritz carlton, the nurse was waiting for me, I got a choice in what I ate, if I was hungry at anytime they would go to the pantry or send a tech down to the cafeteria, if I was bored I could call a team of volunteers that had activities for me, on fridays I could get a puppy to come in my room, and the room was so much bigger. On

On Wed I thought okay I get the clerage today, nope the nurse came in and said you have to finish the 24 hour urine test you started late afternoon yesterday, at least I finally got to eat in the morning that tuesday again I was starved because they thought we were doing the surgery. So it was a day of just chilling out in the room, then late afternoon the nurse was talking to me I felt like all the sudden she sounded like she was in a tunnel, I got hot all the sudden and dizzy she checked my sugar it was way low, she asked did you eat your afternoon snack I was like I did not get one, then she checked and came back they forgot to put it in the system I sent the tech to the cafeteria to see what she can get, my husband was like she needs something now, he went to the pantry which is on the same floor, and got me some fruit cups, pudding and crackers, I started feeling much better, tech came back thirty minutes later, with some fruit.

It's Still a Girl

Got second confirmation it is still a girl, hubby is still stuck on name he has chosen, I am still up in the air about it, and no middle name seems to go. We started our registry last week at babies r us, I think I was in shock that I am at the halfway point, so hubby had the scanner, of course I had to go in and delete half the stuff he put on there he had 5 carseats and 4 strollers. I went to babies r us to look at the crib I was thinking of buying off amazon, I am happy I went to look at it, I would of been so disappointed if I just ordered it site unseen, I kept seeing in the reviews that it was smaller than most cribs, it was so cheap looking and did not seem sturdy. I went with this crib instead:
and now I am looking at bedding I have chosen a bedding set I like but everywhere I look it is sold out:

Anatomy Scan

Had my anatomy scan yesterday and found out it was a girl, I was so sure it was a boy, I had my name already picked out, now I have to wrap my head around the fact it is a girl. Baby looked good had the same ultrasound tech, I swear she tries to punch the probe through my stomache, I guess there was concern baby was not moving much, so doc came in and there she was just swimming and flipping away, doc did not press probe so hard into my stomache, I think tech was making it hard for baby to move. I guess I will go get me a mannequin head and learn to braid, so at least the child does not look crazy, have another anatomy scan next week with regular doc, and peri wants to do it again at appointment in a month, I have had a ultrasound with every doc appointment I am not complaining, at least a regular doc appointment I can record that ultrasound again. Husband is very excited and stuck on one name, I am still getting used to having a girl so don't know yet really how I feel about the name.

Boooo

I will be waiting to do my gender scan with Peri on the 28th of dec., bummer but I guess I can wait two more weeks, and it will be a more accurate guess, and very inexpensive just my copay. My appetite has come back I can't eat alot at one sitting but every two hours I am starving, need to be better about having snacks especially in the afternoon after sitting in traffic on the highway I feel like I just want to run cars over so I can get home and eat, I usually stop and get a burger or chicken sandwich not good choices especially since I have to monitor blood sugars and dinner is always high, nurse has already called and cussed me out about making choices after I faxed her my glucose sheet for the week.

NT Scan

Wow I am still going, had my NT scan yesterday it took 2 freakin hours, the baby would not move in the right position for neck measurement, she would shake my belly and baby would lift its hand like leave me alone I am sleep and curl tighter in the fetal position, she would have me move in all these different positions and then cough, and she used so much ultrasound gel my pants were covered in it.

Then I got my bill for delivery, I was surprised about that did not know I had to prepay, but I am not complaining about what I have to pay, I was listening to this couple while waiting in docs office the wife was having a panic attack about what they had to pay, I heard the number and was like woah I see why she is panicing so I am grateful for the amount I have to pay.

Still throwing up, have not been taking Zofran, no nauseous, so I can deal with throwing up.
I have scheduled my gender scan with one of those 3d/4d ultrasound places for dec 19th wanted to know before xmas suppose to be going to visit hubbys family for XMAS so it will be nice to share the news with what we are having if baby is cooperating, if not gender scan with doc is on Dec. 28th.

How I love the Z

Had my second ultrasound yesterday, I was so nervous I did not sleep good, my sister came with me to the appointment I was waiting for like 30 minutes, usually when I get there I get seen right away, the secretary went in the back to see what was going on, I had visions in my head that the techs were fighting over who would do the ultrasound because they did not want to be the one to give me the bad news. The tech turned the screen away from me, my sister stood up to look, I heard her gasp I got scared she was like I see it, its big, but let me be quiet lets make sure there is a heartbeat still there, the tech turned the screen was like here is your baby measuring right on track, I was like omg it looks big, I see nubs for arms and legs, and can clearly see heartbeat without squinting, we saw one of the nubs move looked like it was waving, the tech and my sister started talking she took like fifty million pictures, both my sister and tech were just oohing and aweing then I felt weird laying there with a wand up my hoo hah with the tech holding it while her and my sister were having a social conversation.

RE wants me back in two weeks and then he said if things are still going well he will kick me out, we will also discuss another ob/gyn since I did not like his first referral and the guy has moved to cumming, not driving that far, he said don't go to North Fulton they have been cited for a number of violations in the OB/GYN department, come to think of it it is hard to find a ob/gyn that does deliver there now especially since northside has opened several new locations in different cites, so it looks like I will probally be at Northside. North Fulton is good for if you are doing a waterbirth and are under a midwifes care, but we will see how long that reputation lasts I have heard rumors of another hospital in atlanta starting to offer water births.

I am so happy that my doctor gave me some Zofran, I love this stuff to be able to eat today, and not throw it back up, it does have a weird side effect it makes you drowsy, but not drowsy where you feel like you want to sleep, I felt sleepy but also up at the same time, had a very hard time concentrating at work today.

OMG

OMG I feel like crap, this weekend has been the worst, yesterday all I ate was a plain burger at lunch time and nothing else at least I was able to keep it down, I took my nephew to a birthday party at the mall they had pizza from sbarro, I wanted some but was scared I would have to run to the bathroom all the sudden, and did not want to have to leave my nephew unattended, this morning I ate a corner of a spinach and chicken quesidilla and could not keep it down, this time around I do feel different from last time I would sometimes have morning sickness when I ate, this time I am just nauseous all the time and have not been able to keep anything down, and if I do keep it down I wish it would come back up, well I hope on Wednesday these feeling start to dwindle down some, according to the women in my due date club they say it does start to get better going into late 8 wks into 9 wks we shall see, otherwise at ultrasound if it goes good I will beg for zofran, the on call doc from first ultrasound told me no when I asked, her approach is old fashioned anyway according to the rumors in the office. So happy that I will be with my regular RE.

First Ultrasound

Had the first ultrasound today, there were two gest sacs, but one was empty, the other one the heartbeat was beating nice and strong, and I could actually see it, and baby looked like a gummy bear, compared to last Pregnancy cycle I could not make out jack on the screen or see heartbeat, and I heard the heartbeat nice and strong last time I could barely hear it. I am measuring at 6wks 2 days they said this does not change due date because there is so much error in measuring the beginning, doc said I could come back and two weeks and we see two heartbeats, or there will be nothing, I am thinking Baby B is not viable because I should of at least seen a yolk sac and fetal pole, but there was nothing in it and it was so much smaller than baby a, I will post pic when I upload it. No wonder the morning sickness kicked in earlier for me, well next ultrsound is on the 27th if I can make it past that I will be happy, I will be exactly 9 wks and feel a little more confindent about this pregnancy.

Beta #3

Well I got beta #3 on Monday it was 5292, after they had me in a panick all day, I am used to getting called by 11:30 am, she did not call me till 2:30 pm, I was beginning to think it was bad news and nurse was scared to call.

Well the morning sickness has kicked in was eating the best steak of my life for a birthday dinner for my brother and 60.00 bucks went down the toilet, I haven't had any sickness in the morning, just at night after dinner, no let me take that back I did barf up my cup of water I drank one morning.

1st ultrasound is on monday and hope to see the hearbeat, maybe I will actually see the heartbeat since I will be hitting two days shy of 7 weeks, last time they told me it was there, I didn't see a thing but a little piece of rice, so maybe it will be a better view I think first time around I went in 6 wks exactly.

BEta #2

Beta #2 is 412 so it is in range with where it is suppose to be, had a little spotting today, it was very faint pink, had this with last BFP cycle also, my insurance company sent me the Mayo Clinics guide to pregnancy and it did say around this time you might see a little spotting as placenta starts to implant itself into the uterus, looks like a good book better than what to expect. Well go back for beta #3 on Monday and if that number is over 2000 then will schedule ultrasound to see heart beat yeah.