No He didn't

I am so pissed and hurt right now, this will be my first child, and hubby's second child, when me and hubby used to talk about starting a family I told him I wanted him to be excited and enthusiatic with me and I don't won't to hear about different things like oh yeah me and first child mom did that. Well I thought it would be fun this morning to take pics and put it on the website makemebabies.com, they merge your pictures together and give you a potential look at what your future child would look like and its free. He told me he was not wasting his time doing that, when baby mama was first pregnant they had a stand at the mall that did that and he said my daughter looked nothing like that picture so I am not doing it. That hurt my feelings and pissed me off.

2nd BETA

Got the call about the second beta it is 337 so I am happy about that more than doubled. I have to do a third beta in week, that sucks, I was hoping for first ultrasound to see a fetal pole, a sac, a yolk, something, this means first ultrasound probally won't be until sometime in the first week of June, I guess thats cool since I will be six weeks so hearbeat should be seen. So know I just sit and wait until next thursday.

Of Course I had to POAS 15 DPO

Beta#1

Just got the call Beta #1 is 77, which means I am preggo yeah, doc was like you don't sound very excited, I was like I am but I am under my desk sneaking on cell phone. Estrogen is 520 and progesterone is 22. Go back thursday for second beta, pray for a great doubling time. Number sounds like a singleton hubby will be relieved just sent him a text made sure to tell him number is in range for one.

Tommorrow is the day...

Well beta is tommorrow, so far this FET has been different with symptoms usually I get the sore bbs not this time. Yesterday I had the most awful taste in my mouth that I could not get rid of no chewing gum, or brushing teeth or eating helped. And yesterday it was a girls night out for dinner, I did not eat at all my food was just not appeatizing to me, and my sil had this rice with this ginger thing on top of it and it just smelled so horrible to me, then they wanted to bar hop, so walking up and down the streets to the bars, and I was cramping like crazy, and got a shooting pain in my groin area, today I am taking it easy about to watch my netflix, and hope for great news tommorrow.

WTH?

Ok so I am at work here freaking out, I just went to the bathroom and when I wiped there was dark brown blood. I am hoping this is implantation spotting, I never spot before I have a period, unless its been six months or more since last period and its just spontaneous bleeding because lining is so thick from not have a period for so long. In this case not the problem been having medically induced periods since december. Now my question is does this mean the embies just implanted so it would be two days before I see anything on a hpt, or if I took one now it would show up.

The symptoms I have been having are the usual cramping for two days after transfer, my left side feeling like I pulled a muscle, then since tues if I don't eat within hour after waking up my stomache cramps(I am not a breakfast eater, I usually do not eat until noon which is my lunchtime at work) and I feel like I haven't ate for days. on Wed my sister made a salad for dinner and I thought I was going to barf looking at it, I had to leave. yesterday I was just feeling nauseous, and when her boyfriend got in car after smoking I was dizzy smelling the smoke come off of him.