The Signs

I had some dark brown spotting today, so I am hoping that is implantation spotting, I was looking for it to be today or tommorrow, I was starting to lose hope because no cramps, and the tight feeling sometimes I feel and other times I don't and my nephew stomped on my toe so I have to limp so did not know if the tight feeling in top of my legs was from having to limp. Went to hospital so I could get one of those shoe boots for foot and all I smelled throughout hospital was onions, and today I am so nauseous, so I hope this spotting is a good sign.

lining check set

Set up to have lining check on tuesday morning before work, turned in my request to be able to leave work for the transfer for the 14th did not get denied, I was so scared I was because there are already two people off that day, but I guess since I am coming back to work after appointment no biggie. I am hoping lining will be fine it was a 8 on wednesday I think it will be a 12 or 14 by appointment time.

sonogram today

Had my sonogram today, doc had me worried talking about my lining looked too thick and he was going to give me provera to start a new cycle. Then I reminded him he had me start estrace last week, then he was like oh then your fine lining is coming along fine it is at a 8. Still have to do a lining check next week, but he said I can come during ivf monitioring which is before work and just leave ultrasound with receptionist. All immune testing came back negative. So transfer is still the 14th.

I have a date

Well witch is here, will have saline sonogram on sept 2nd, I start estrace tommorrow and transfer is set for sept 14th, just so ready to get this show on the road.

Warming the engine up again

Well I called yesterday to see about starting birth control pills, and my doc and his nurse were on vacation till next week, so I got some lady that insisted I had to come in for a pre ivf consult said doc won't let me start without one, little does she know I always start without having to come in since I have no cycles, but I figured just as well see if any thing came back from d&c report, lady said she did not see it in my file and it was not in front of her, ok lady I know you cannot tell me the results only the doctor can. So I go in thursday for appointment and will probally start bcp pills that night when I pick up prescription. I was scared to call because I thought I had no more credit and no more insurance to cover a FET, but I talked to the business lady and she was like you insurance rate for a FET is $750, and you have enough for two more tries, and your credit will cover a cash pay if you have to do a third, I was happy to hear that. So next week the start of FET#4 sigh.

Beta#1

Just got the call Beta #1 is 77, which means I am preggo yeah, doc was like you don't sound very excited, I was like I am but I am under my desk sneaking on cell phone. Estrogen is 520 and progesterone is 22. Go back thursday for second beta, pray for a great doubling time. Number sounds like a singleton hubby will be relieved just sent him a text made sure to tell him number is in range for one.

Tommorrow is the day...

Well beta is tommorrow, so far this FET has been different with symptoms usually I get the sore bbs not this time. Yesterday I had the most awful taste in my mouth that I could not get rid of no chewing gum, or brushing teeth or eating helped. And yesterday it was a girls night out for dinner, I did not eat at all my food was just not appeatizing to me, and my sil had this rice with this ginger thing on top of it and it just smelled so horrible to me, then they wanted to bar hop, so walking up and down the streets to the bars, and I was cramping like crazy, and got a shooting pain in my groin area, today I am taking it easy about to watch my netflix, and hope for great news tommorrow.

WTH?

Ok so I am at work here freaking out, I just went to the bathroom and when I wiped there was dark brown blood. I am hoping this is implantation spotting, I never spot before I have a period, unless its been six months or more since last period and its just spontaneous bleeding because lining is so thick from not have a period for so long. In this case not the problem been having medically induced periods since december. Now my question is does this mean the embies just implanted so it would be two days before I see anything on a hpt, or if I took one now it would show up.

The symptoms I have been having are the usual cramping for two days after transfer, my left side feeling like I pulled a muscle, then since tues if I don't eat within hour after waking up my stomache cramps(I am not a breakfast eater, I usually do not eat until noon which is my lunchtime at work) and I feel like I haven't ate for days. on Wed my sister made a salad for dinner and I thought I was going to barf looking at it, I had to leave. yesterday I was just feeling nauseous, and when her boyfriend got in car after smoking I was dizzy smelling the smoke come off of him.

They are in again for fourth time....

Well they are in 3 blasts again, embryologist said he thawed out six one didn't make it, said all five were really good, these were the three best, perfect lining, perfect uterus as always now will they stick is the question, so far have not been hit with a gastro attack like I usually have an hour after transfer, just the usual little cramping where embryos were put. This Swine flu has me paranoid did not appreacite the fact the ultrasound tech was sneezing and had a runny nose especially since transfer rooms are suppose to be sterilely clean, also someone in back of embryologist lab office was having a an awful sneeze attack, of course I am the guinea pig all the time they are training a new ultrasound tech, and when we were waiting for doc I heard them in the corner how they had to send a ultrasound tech home again for being sick. I wonder why they always put on left side, and not right side. Oh well Beta is on May 18th hoping to sneak in at 7 am so I don't have to miss any work.

Transfer Time

Just got the call with transfer time, it is tommorrow at 9:45 am, yeah get this show on the road.

Sorry Charlie

Well got the call beta is negative again, will go in next week for the what the hell happened consult, I do know I want a biopsy to make sure no implantation issues, he was talking about another lap, umm no there was nothing at the first one. He also said testing for clotting disorders, and autoimmune testing. I also will call an endocrinologist and have another glucose tolerance test, need to have one I have been slacking in the metformin department. Just am so tired and drained right now he took all day to call usually I have a call by noon. He did not call me till 3:40 pm, just alot of tension in my back because everyone has been calling to see if I had results yet, and it made me jump everytime the phone rang. Back to the drawing board

They're In

Well here they are:




We transfered 3 blasts back, embryoloigist said they were good quality, I was trying to ask questions but he was too busy in my little sisters face, I brought her along so she could understand the transfer process she always thinks its major surgery, and she is the pretty and charming one. I don't think the doctor came and talked to me he was too busy standing in the corner flirting with her, even the embryologist stayed in the room when they did my transfer, he has never done that he always shows you the pic tells you if they are good or bad ask how many you want to transfer, and then leaves the room. Even the nurse like my sister, but that is just her personality. They were like we hope we get to see you again I looked at them like they were crazy, and then nurse tried to clean it up I mean with another patient. Well beta is march 9th, I can feel where he put the embryos on my left side, it is sore right there.

I am having medicine drama now, I knew I needed more estrace because he upped my dose, so I called the mail order and ordered another refill today they do not ship on weekends so it would be shipped out on monday and I get it Tuesday, then when I got home I was like let me count the pills, I only had enough left for today and half for tommorrow, since he has upped my dose. So I call my local pharmacy to see if they had estrace she said yes, called mailorder back they canceled the order and told me to go to pharmicist and have them call so they can transfer, so they transfered and filled it, and I was paying half attention to the lady because I was on cell phone, she was like we were able to give you thirty days, I get home and realize she only gave me thirty pills, so that will last me through wednesday, so I will have to cal doc on monday and have them call mail order for another prescrip because that was last refill, if I had paid attention then I would of told them to give me the 120 and just paid out of pocket, I cant be mad at the lady because I was not paying attention .

She's a 8

Lining check this morning and it was a 8.2, so transfer is not cancelled the nurses called this afternoon to confirm. The only thing that sucks is I have to stay on the high dose of estrogen until beta, the high dose makes me nauseous. So tonite pio shots start, yeah thats fun.

A hiccup

had my lining check on thursday, my lining was a 6.2, doc was talking about pushing back transfer date, I was like nooo I already got a vacation day for Friday, so he upped my estrogen dose and said come back sunday morning if lining is a 6.8 or 7 then we can proceed. So I hope tommorrow my lining is fine. I can get my vacation day changed with no problem but just so ready to get this show on the road. Just surprised lining was thin never had this problem before, I think its because this time he had me do a double dose of lupron for suppression. He said other thin it being thin everything else was textbook perfect it tripled striped, I did not have a single follie, on the ultrasound which I guess is good for a pcoser. I just hope this is the only hiccup. If this one does not work I am asking for a uterine biopsy to make sure no problems with implantation. Lets hope for the best tommorow.

I have dates again

Well I started spotting yesterday, so I just called the re and told them it was day one because I knew saturday witch would be here full on and did not want to wait till monday to call, so of course witch is here today and I start estrace tommorrow. Will have lining check on 2/19 and transfer 2/27.

Finally

I finally got the ok to start bcp which I will start tommorrow and waiting for my mailorder pharmacy to call me with shipping confirmation for my lupron, estrace, and pio meds.

getting back on the wagon

Well its the new year time to get back on the infertility wagon, I will call on monday to see about starting bcp and getting my meds, just not looking forward to the side effects, and emotional feelings you go through.

Beta is in

and it is a bfn, said it was zero, will try again in january, no more vacation or sick time, and I have two court dates I am going to have to miss work for so just did not want compile more missed worked with that, especially since we are hitting are busy season, but january I will be calling and probally transfer in feb. 2009

They're in

Well yesterday I had my transfer, I transfered in 3, all four made the thaw, but embryologist recommended doing the three said one of them to him did not look that great it had only started to divide right before transfer, I should of just went ahead and did all four but no dwelling on it now. Everyone keeps asking are they day 3 or day 5 embryos and honestly I do not know what to call them, they froze some once fertilization was confirmed and that is what was used first so I would say they are day 2 embryos but for purposes for my chart on ff I am saying day 3 embryos, last night I had to get up six times to pee and not tinkle I mean really pee. I had to drink so much water for some reason my bladder would not fill up yesterday so the doc which is not my usual re said she just did what they did back when ivf first started put catheter all the way in till she felt it reach top of uterus and then pull back and release, I think she should of gave me a choice in the matter, if I wanted to go back out to waiting room and wait some more or let her do it the old way, she just did it the old way and then told me she could not see anything on the ultrasound so that is why she did it. I did not like her too much anyway. Hard to find a doctor that is good and also has a great bedside manner. Now we wait for beta on oct 22nd.

Lining Check

Had my lining check today it is 7.9 triple strip, transfer will be oct. 10th and will transfer four if all four make the freeze, now I just wait for thursday for the time to come in on friday. Tuesday the dreaded pio shots start.