I can start

Got the go ahead to start the bcp will be doing three weeks, on the third week will start lupron, she is mailing the rest of my schedule so I should have it by thursday. Happy to start getting this show on the road.

freakin trick

was waiting for phone call tommorrow to tell me to start bcp and then the trick wants to show up on her own, and with the worst freaking cramps I have ever had, it was uncomfortable to sit, thank god a coworker had some tylenol, I am hoping now that he will just tell me to start bcp next week and take them for three weeks instead of two

FET #1 is on the way

Went for the consult basically its a 3400 deposit, we have a credit of 1396.00 after ivf, mom has agreed to gives us the money as a anniversary present yeah, just waiting for them to call me back they took blood for progesterone to make sure I did not ovulate or I am about to ovulate yeah right, and also a beta to make sure I am not pregnant, if all is clear then I will take bcp for two weeks and start lupron on the second week of bcp and then once auntie is here call them for suppression check, if all is well will then start estrace the pills, thank god did not want to do patches because I like wearing lotion, and go in for a endometrial check anywhere from day 10 to day 13 if all is well transfer is day 18. They said they usually start with day one fertilization embryos said will probally thaw out four if all four make it all four will be put back in me. I am just happy no stimming meds

yeah the 20th is coming and will find out if we are doing a FET, right now what would stop us is the cost since we are out of pocket, I am so hoping that my credit is enough to cover this cycle. If we can't afford it don't know when we would be able to do a FET cycle because if its after oct 31st that means going through the hsg again, but I am hoping the saline sono I had in July would count as testing so then its just coming up with money for a FET I might ask my mom to pay for it since the 20th is our anniversary, give that to us as a present. I was going to ask for a pc laptop since there are certifications and classes both hubby and I want to take and you can't use a mac.

Countdown begins

yeah august is finally here, now just twenty more days, and I get consult and see what the plan is do I have to do lupron for a month or will he just start me? What will he do to help my lining become the right environment I hope no injects. Then last question is this going to cost a arm and a leg. I hope the month goes by fast.

This has been the worst summer my job can never get off on time, get off like 2 hours late, and now she wants us to come in tommorrow(Saturday) because we are a day behind in work, and its the first of the month so people will be depositing lots of fake deposits so they won't be charged overdraft fees and they can get pay there rent, I wish the government would make it mandatory for all companies to give a pay increase to go with inflation of everything, when the economy goes up these peoples accounts that we have to closed and reported to the chex system will be in a bind, no checking accounts at any bank for five years so monday will be a very big workload, and she wants us to catch up. I don't have to go in, but the pressure of being a good teamplayer, when asked I told them I would be there at 9am, most of the team is coming in at 6 am they can have that one. I have to wait a year before I can post for another position, there was this job that I wanted so bad its running the dialer and strategys for the collections department, my husband posted for it, I told him not to do it he got another position in march and they want you to be in position for year before posting for another one, he got the interview which is good they had 500 resumes, the hiring manager told him the only reason he would not get position is because he hasn't even been in current one for six months and what he does now sounds exciting and he does not understand why he wants to leave, and he is concerned that he would want to leave the dialer position soon too, he monitors brinks, and loomis trucks that replenish the atm machines, he makes sure the money balances in the atm machines, and the banks vaults if it does not he has to find out did the agent steal the money, or put the wrong bills in, or entered something in wrong.

Then hubby baby mama called saying that stepdaughters hair looks like it fell out, and she was mad, when she left us she had all her hair, but if it did fall out I think because of shampoo my mom was using this natural shampoo for curly hair, my sister in law has the same type of hair curly and fine, and she used shampoo too and her hair fell out too, she cut it down and it has grown back since, I think shampoo wasn't strong enough to break down the chlorine in stepdaughters hair, I couldn't do her hair because first I don't do hair I don't even like doing mine, and second I was getting home so late no time for me to do hair, I did not want to take her to salons because they would want to blow dry hair and if the dryer is too hot it can change texture happened to me that is why I just went ahead and relaxed my hair it was either cut it down again, or they braid too tight and hair fall out, I guess it didn't matter, my mom can basically do anything do her hair if she wants it straight she just brushes it straight and its straight, if she wants curls she just washes and braids at night wakes up takes it out and she has beautiful curly hair, its long almost mid back, and she always trys to get people to do the same thing. I guess next summer I will just take stepdaughter to hubbys sister she has same type of hair and her daughter does too, don't know what I am going to do if I have a daughter with the same type of hair I am hoping she will have a courser texture like my mom

Results of Beta

Well on July 3rd, I woke up at 5 am and poas and it was neg., so at work I am waiting for results they said they would call between 1 pm and 5 pm. It was 12pm so I took a restroom break came back and it was a missed call from re office, I could not call them back they were closed for lunch and phones would not be turned back on until 1pm. I listened to my message and it was the doctor himself so I knew it was negative, my stomache just dropped and I felt like I was going to throw up, I sent my hubby a instant message and told him to call doctor for me since if I talked to him I would probally started crying and did not want coworkers in my business, they think I had surgery to remove some cysts. So hubby talked to him my beta was a 28, when I got home I grilled hubby what doc said because I thought anything over a 20 was good, I called my sister she is a lab manager and she looked up the results in there lab database and she called a re and they did say they want something over a 50 to be a strong beta for my dpo. My hubby and I argued last night because doc told him he wants me to do a Frozen egg transfer right away, I told hubby I have to wait for sept or oct, because first I want to give my body a chance to recover ovaries still feel weird sometimes and second during the end of the ivf process my boss was giving me grief because I was coming into work late, and missing days, we have two people on medical leave and then of course people that have scheduled vacations, and then our work load has doubled sign that economy is doing bad, I close customers accounts at the bank when they try to defraud us, alot of people depositing bad checks or fake deposits at the atm in order to try to avoid overdraft fees being taken out of their direct deposits. I am hoping by sept or oct she will have the four people hired that she was approved to do so, I am tired of leaving work 6:30 pm to 8 pm every night because all work in reports must be done, only good thing about this at least she did get approval for us to have overtime, because before our pay grade we were not allowed overtime. I need to be able to get off to go to the consult appointment then for FET process I will do medical leave so I don't have to hear boss's mouth. So I am hoping in August I can take a vacation for a week during anniversary and will make consult appointment for then and probally start in sept. hey at least if the FET works I will have the whole summer for maternity leave they announced for 2009 that maternity leave is now three months instead of two and I will probally take an additionally 2 month personal leave.

3 days till beta

I hope the rest of the week hurries up, this seems like the longest wait of my life, and I am not testing before hand I want to wait for the phone call, if it says positive then the next day I will poas just to have for the pregnancy scrapbook. I just sit here going back and forth in my mind I am pregnant or no I am not pregnant, I didn't really feel any symptoms today, so I am not, or that is a sign I am. One symptom I am having that I have not experienced is the frequent urination I go like every hour, I do not even get a good nights sleep, and my back does let me know when I am standing or sitting too long, but rest of symptoms nausea, sore bbs, weird smells that can also be attributed the prog. shot. So don't know I hope I find out by 1 or 2 pm its going to depend on the nurse working that day, one nurse she calls you as soon as she gets the results of any test, the other nurse is by the book so that would mean not finding out till like 5pm when I am sitting in traffic.