I Graduated

Yeah I finally graduated from the RE, I was nervous the tech I got was the one who had told me about my miscarriage and she was so bitchy then. But she was real nice and took fifty million pictures, the baby looked liked it was running, I kept thinking in my head Run Forest Run, then it flipped and then it bent over and mooned us. My RE gave me a silver spoon as a parting gift and hug and said hope you choose us again when you are ready for child #2.

Today I had my first ob/gyn thought it was not going to happen get to office and doctor I chose was not at that location today, but they were still able to fit me in, I liked that doctor he was real cool he knew my RE said he met him on a camping trip because my RE was the only one that came in a fully loaded RV with a big screen tv and stero and gaming system, haha that was funny, and he gets a award he gave me the fastest pap smear I have ever had in my life, I hate feeling the scraping I was preparing myself and then he was done, I was like wow, didn't feel a thing, then did a ultrasound, gave him the DVD to record he was like I am really impressed you pay attention most people bring in the wrong type of dvd and then you have to deal with the disappoint, but their ultrasound machine is great, of course all baby showed was butt again looked like he didn't have a head, doc said well we know its fine because it is kicking its legs, can't see heartbeat because of way baby was facing, we heard it, it was fine, then I asked him about does he think I will have natural birth or C-section, he said if you go before 39 weeks then you can do natural or we can induce youm but we do not allow our diabetic patients to go past 39 weeks, Told him do not want to be induced, just give me a c-setion if I have not gone into labor by 39 weeks, don't want to have to have a emergency c-section. Tommorrow the nurse will call me with appointment day and time for NT Scan with MFM specialist, and I go back to ob/gyn in 3 weeks.

OMG

OMG I feel like crap, this weekend has been the worst, yesterday all I ate was a plain burger at lunch time and nothing else at least I was able to keep it down, I took my nephew to a birthday party at the mall they had pizza from sbarro, I wanted some but was scared I would have to run to the bathroom all the sudden, and did not want to have to leave my nephew unattended, this morning I ate a corner of a spinach and chicken quesidilla and could not keep it down, this time around I do feel different from last time I would sometimes have morning sickness when I ate, this time I am just nauseous all the time and have not been able to keep anything down, and if I do keep it down I wish it would come back up, well I hope on Wednesday these feeling start to dwindle down some, according to the women in my due date club they say it does start to get better going into late 8 wks into 9 wks we shall see, otherwise at ultrasound if it goes good I will beg for zofran, the on call doc from first ultrasound told me no when I asked, her approach is old fashioned anyway according to the rumors in the office. So happy that I will be with my regular RE.

Beta #3

Well I got beta #3 on Monday it was 5292, after they had me in a panick all day, I am used to getting called by 11:30 am, she did not call me till 2:30 pm, I was beginning to think it was bad news and nurse was scared to call.

Well the morning sickness has kicked in was eating the best steak of my life for a birthday dinner for my brother and 60.00 bucks went down the toilet, I haven't had any sickness in the morning, just at night after dinner, no let me take that back I did barf up my cup of water I drank one morning.

1st ultrasound is on monday and hope to see the hearbeat, maybe I will actually see the heartbeat since I will be hitting two days shy of 7 weeks, last time they told me it was there, I didn't see a thing but a little piece of rice, so maybe it will be a better view I think first time around I went in 6 wks exactly.

Look what I got.....

Well I am sitting at home bored because of all this flooding, going on here, it was hell tryimg to get home yesterday, and my neighborhood is covered in water because we have two lakes, luckly we live up on the hill so house was not flooded, but I was thinking to myself I really do not feel any symptoms this time around, no really tightening in legs, I have been taking naps at work, only had to use the bathroom alot one day, but n-e way I Peed on my only digital and this is what I got:

The Signs

I had some dark brown spotting today, so I am hoping that is implantation spotting, I was looking for it to be today or tommorrow, I was starting to lose hope because no cramps, and the tight feeling sometimes I feel and other times I don't and my nephew stomped on my toe so I have to limp so did not know if the tight feeling in top of my legs was from having to limp. Went to hospital so I could get one of those shoe boots for foot and all I smelled throughout hospital was onions, and today I am so nauseous, so I hope this spotting is a good sign.

They're In

Transfered four in today, two of them looked awesome according to re and embryo guy and the other two not so good. I now have no more embryos, said they thawed out the rest of the day one embryos and none of them survived the thaw. So they turned to the rest of my blasts one of them did not survive the thaw, so the four remaining were put in me. Beta is scheduled for the 24th it was the 28th but nurse called and said she can make it earlier said 28th was based on if they had to transfer day one embryos, but since we are doing blasts then the 24th is fine, I was like yeah I want to do it earlier, because that means if this works second beta will be on the 28th.

I got my heparin today finally the pharmicist called the nurse to get things squared away, she was really protecting her ass, but I still have to go in tommorrow to get the needles because I need tb needles and they only have insulin, luckly directions nurse gave me were to start tommorrow. So now I am officially in the tww and officially pupo

lining check set

Set up to have lining check on tuesday morning before work, turned in my request to be able to leave work for the transfer for the 14th did not get denied, I was so scared I was because there are already two people off that day, but I guess since I am coming back to work after appointment no biggie. I am hoping lining will be fine it was a 8 on wednesday I think it will be a 12 or 14 by appointment time.

sonogram today

Had my sonogram today, doc had me worried talking about my lining looked too thick and he was going to give me provera to start a new cycle. Then I reminded him he had me start estrace last week, then he was like oh then your fine lining is coming along fine it is at a 8. Still have to do a lining check next week, but he said I can come during ivf monitioring which is before work and just leave ultrasound with receptionist. All immune testing came back negative. So transfer is still the 14th.

Day one

Well went ahead and took my first shot of lupron, 9 more days and witch should be here, by the time my suppression check comes results of blood clotting test should be in and I will know if taking heparin is because I actually need it or if I am just taking it because it can't hurt.

Follow up Appointment Results

Went in for follow-up appointment, results of D&C came back normal male, doc said this was not good, said if it came back because something was wrong with baby he said that would of been better, said since its normal said then that means it was something wrong with me, said also with my implantation rate which would be 9% said we really have to consider something is wrong with my endometrium, said I should be having a implantation rate of 35-40%. Said after next cycle if not pregnant said I can go ahead and use up my eggs and embryos and hope for a miracle, or get a best friend to carry, or just consider myself done with trying. For this next cycle I will be adding heparin to the mix doc said this is the kitchen sink, said if this does not work then that is all. So I hope this has to work in just getting me a positive would be great at this point, am I feelin sad no because if this cycle is not working and I go in for another consult I believe doc may come up with another plan, he had a med student following him that day and he is usually overly dramatic with outcomes when he is being shadowed, So now just waiting for meds to get here so I can start lupron, thank god no birth control pills.

1st ultrasound

Had the first ultrasound today and yes there was a grain a rice in there with a heartbeat, measuring right on track with my due date. I was so nervous thinking what if nothing is in there, the symptoms I have been having is nauseous, sore bbs, and tired, I had to take a nap yesterday instead of eating lunch I was so tired. We got to hear the heartbeat took a minute to pick up the sound kept fading in and out, said could not measure it yet too soon, then when I went in room to wait for doc he came in and said its about fucking time, and gave me a high five, okay that was interesting and a bold move how do you know my feelings about cussing, well when I use up my vial of PIO I get to use the gel now, I think I cracked the bottle I dropped it when I took it out the box and when I was filling the syringe it was dripping down the syringe, oh well at least I filled the gel prescriptions. Well next ultrasound in two weeks, I was hoping for weekly appointments.

Beta#1

Just got the call Beta #1 is 77, which means I am preggo yeah, doc was like you don't sound very excited, I was like I am but I am under my desk sneaking on cell phone. Estrogen is 520 and progesterone is 22. Go back thursday for second beta, pray for a great doubling time. Number sounds like a singleton hubby will be relieved just sent him a text made sure to tell him number is in range for one.

Tommorrow is the day...

Well beta is tommorrow, so far this FET has been different with symptoms usually I get the sore bbs not this time. Yesterday I had the most awful taste in my mouth that I could not get rid of no chewing gum, or brushing teeth or eating helped. And yesterday it was a girls night out for dinner, I did not eat at all my food was just not appeatizing to me, and my sil had this rice with this ginger thing on top of it and it just smelled so horrible to me, then they wanted to bar hop, so walking up and down the streets to the bars, and I was cramping like crazy, and got a shooting pain in my groin area, today I am taking it easy about to watch my netflix, and hope for great news tommorrow.

WTH?

Ok so I am at work here freaking out, I just went to the bathroom and when I wiped there was dark brown blood. I am hoping this is implantation spotting, I never spot before I have a period, unless its been six months or more since last period and its just spontaneous bleeding because lining is so thick from not have a period for so long. In this case not the problem been having medically induced periods since december. Now my question is does this mean the embies just implanted so it would be two days before I see anything on a hpt, or if I took one now it would show up.

The symptoms I have been having are the usual cramping for two days after transfer, my left side feeling like I pulled a muscle, then since tues if I don't eat within hour after waking up my stomache cramps(I am not a breakfast eater, I usually do not eat until noon which is my lunchtime at work) and I feel like I haven't ate for days. on Wed my sister made a salad for dinner and I thought I was going to barf looking at it, I had to leave. yesterday I was just feeling nauseous, and when her boyfriend got in car after smoking I was dizzy smelling the smoke come off of him.

They are in again for fourth time....

Well they are in 3 blasts again, embryologist said he thawed out six one didn't make it, said all five were really good, these were the three best, perfect lining, perfect uterus as always now will they stick is the question, so far have not been hit with a gastro attack like I usually have an hour after transfer, just the usual little cramping where embryos were put. This Swine flu has me paranoid did not appreacite the fact the ultrasound tech was sneezing and had a runny nose especially since transfer rooms are suppose to be sterilely clean, also someone in back of embryologist lab office was having a an awful sneeze attack, of course I am the guinea pig all the time they are training a new ultrasound tech, and when we were waiting for doc I heard them in the corner how they had to send a ultrasound tech home again for being sick. I wonder why they always put on left side, and not right side. Oh well Beta is on May 18th hoping to sneak in at 7 am so I don't have to miss any work.

Transfer Time

Just got the call with transfer time, it is tommorrow at 9:45 am, yeah get this show on the road.

Had my lining check today, it was a 11 so everything so far is good to go, they will start thawing and growing to blasts on Monday, I felt sad they had there annual breakfast for infertility week, I was like wow I am still here, it will be a year since my ivf and nothing so far, they will call me on wed to let me know how the embryos are doing, if it ends up being a three day I get a call on tues., so lets see how this goes still so far no nauseous, dizziness, or throwing up this time, last FET cycle was just real hard on me for some reason.

Upcoming appointments

lining check on thursday, I have to say so far so good, no nauseus or dizziness, maybe it was the bcp that did that or the fact that I am taking my metformin again and correctly. I spoke too soon about my endo doc she called in saying she wants me to take a hemoglobin a1c test, I will do that thursday morning before lining check since office is down street from re, and have appointment with the results of that may 5th, just hoping no insulin yet.

I have dates for the 4th time

The witch showed up, I am to start estrace on april 19th, go in for suppression check on april 30th and if all is well tranfer on May 8th, which puts beta either may 18th or 19th. My endo never called me back which means the metformin is enough to control my blood sugar. So far so good on the metformin no met tummy, I am suppose to up my dose tommorrow and take one in morning and one at night, but I think I am going to wait till weekend to up it, in case I get met tummy don't want to have it at work. This time around I am not taking it on empty stomache I eat first and then I take it.

My coworker had her first ultrasound monday identical twins 2 in one sac, she could possibly have a etopic pregnancy. She was complaining of sharp pains I told her to go see doc to make sure it hasn't grown in tube, well she saw the two heartbeats today, the etopic has not grown anymore so doc is not sure if it is etopic or not, she goes back friday if it is growing they should be able to see something on friday and she will have surgery to remove it, should not effect the twins, I am so happy for her, and hope she does not have a etopic pregnancy and hopefully its just some debris stuck in tube or it will reabsorb back into body.

Endo scratch

Had the endo scratch today, it was not what I had expected, I thought it was going to be bloody, it wasn't, it felt like when you have sex and cervix is low and cervix is tender, it took all of two minutes, no antibiotics, no restriction on sex, things continue as is, so now just wait for witch and do transfer.

I also found a endocriologist I like, my blood sugar was high she said it is in diabetic range, had to do a 3 hour gtt, my day was spent in the doctors office, so I am now back on metformin she will call me on friday with gtt results, she said going ahead with transfer is fine, by the time I have it, the metformin will be in system, she said that if it works, that she will have me in for weekly testing, because I will defintely need insulin when pregnant,

My coworker that did ivf with another doc at the clinic just had beta on friday it was 383 and her second beta it was 1479, I am happy for her, sounds like twins her ultrasound is next week.